2 Kasım 2011 Çarşamba


Today, it became 1 month 2 day that i came back from South Korea. The time is going on fastly. It is like yesterday. Every moment i am trying to check my mind , my memories. Was it kind of dream such as i have every night when i close my eyes??? Or real? I am trying to freshen up my memories everyday because of to make myself believe this is not a dream!

It was my first overseas travel.First travel to my dream country! Last year that time, It was only a dream, really far away from me!And almost one year later, Suddenly it came true and i went to Korea. It was suprised for me. Even, When i take plane, i couldnt believe that i was going to Korea. When i arrive to incheon, when i see ‘’Welcome to Korea’’, When i was in my fisrt day, i had never believed that my dream came true… Finally second or third day i started to believe it was real… Yes ı was in KOREA!!! I waited too long time for my dream…. Everyday I prayed to God, I cried too much… That is why God gave me that gift suddenly! Because i believed with all heart that i will go there one day! Believe yourself,your dream, and trust God…It was my secret…
25 day in korea… It was like one year that i live,when i was staying there.But when i arrived here It was like one day, finished fastly…It was the best days of my life that i spent in Korea. Kind of princess story in part of my life…I wake up… until last minute , I waited for a miracle… I didnt want to come back to Turkey.I cried when i was leaving from Korea like it is my real country. Everybody looked to me and guessed why i was crying… I was a turkısh girl and i was going to back my country… What was interesting? Why am i crying??? They were questions on people’s eyes when they were looking to me… They never could know why i was crying.
Yes! Why !!! why did i cry too much? Still why am I crying? Why am I missing there too much? Why do I wanna live there? It is not my real country … Why why why… I had many questons in my mind like that. But i thought too much! No reason… It is my fate! I just have to go back…
Now in Turkey it gaves me pain, it hurts me everyday. What kind of person can think about korea every moment??? Yes i can! Some times i think i am getting crazy.I must calm dowm, make Money, and go back~~God will send me a new chance and i will go back to live there!!!! U know ıf ı stay here ı can have a good carrier coz ı am englısh turkısh translator, but i dont wanna have carier, ı dont wanna make Money without aim in Turkey. Just ı want to live korea with peace in a small and cute home^^ HUMANS LİVE WİTH DREAM~~

Seoul, Suwon, Pohang, Busan, Gyeongju are parts of korea that ı saw. But only ı stayed in Seoul and Gyeongju. So ı am missing there too much… perfect Seoul and green Gyeongju… When ı was in korea, I thought ı will miss Seoul more than Gyeongju coz of ı fall in love with Seoul. But now… I guess ı am missing Gyeongju more than Seoul. I know why! I had a family in Gyeongju… I was not alone.
During my travel in Korea, I met many people who ı dont know before… or ı know from internet as a penpal… All of them are so nice people! They gave me many good memories and help. Chan young, Joon ho, Sun ji, Hye jun, Youn joung unni, Oppa, Soo jin, Hyung kyoo oppa, Si hwan, So hyoung unni,Chinese unni, Joo yeon unni, Robin, Ji hye etc… Now all of them became my family in korea!

Chan younga!!! My best friend in Korea^.^ You gave me first perfect memories in seoul with chimtag and chonghaechon stream and in suwon!!!My perfect photographer^^ you always worried about me and took care of me during my travel~such a sensetive friend… missing u ^^ my prayers always with u ^.^ and keep ur promise , next year u will be my guide in gyeongju^^
Joon ho ya^^ kkkk my turkish lover friend.You helped me about my bag too much^^ ıf you didnt came that day , ohh ı cannot thınk^^ study turkısh too much^^ and wait me until next summer^^
Youn young unni!!!! You opened your room your house to me!!! KOMAWOYO UNNİ^^ıt was so comfortable night. I never felt bad during stay at you room^^ and you showed me ur university^^ ı am really thanks for everythıng ^^ ıf u visit turkey, ı will be waiting for u ^^